Here I am moments after weighing myself the other day (in early March 2020) and seeing that I'm finally down to 205 lbs! That means I've lost 25 lbs in total so far!
Most of my life, since my teenage years and throughout my 20's and early 30's, I weighted 150 to 160 lbs. Being so slim I had no trouble buying clothes off the rack at the store without trying things on. I knew that they would fit me because my body was the standard size that manufacturer's made clothes to fit. Back then I felt good about my body and being me. I liked to wear slim fitting clothes, especially spandex cycling shorts. In my 20's when I started working out and cycling, it gave me confidence and I quickly built up some nice muscle definition on my arms. By then I was comfortable taking my shirt off outdoors, and had no worries about wearing my speedo bathing suit at the beach. That was until 2008 when I was 34, just before a major health issue began to cause trouble for me.
Less than eight years later in 2016, when I was 42, I was a completely different person. During that short period of time, I experienced a dramatically swift and, frankly, traumatizing weight gain which maxed out at 230 lbs! That's an increase of 80 lbs, an average of ten lbs per year! I was miserable, depressed, stressed out and confused. I couldn't figure out why I was gaining so much weight so quickly. Like a moth to a flame, I turned to food for comfort in my depression which certainly didn't help matters. I had to buy an entire new wardrobe not once but twice as I went from my familiar size medium up to large and finally extra large. Then at last I had a breakthrough with a doctor who was a specialist, and who told me that I wasn't crazy. There really was something wrong with me that was out of my control which was causing the rapid weight gain.
A comparison showing before and after my rapid weight gain.
To be honest, I'm hesitant to share this next piece of information, but I think it needs to be talked about more openly in our society with more understanding and compassion, as this is quite misunderstood. So here goes...
For reasons still unknown, my testosterone levels had crashed to become even lower than those of a senior aged man in his 90s. Along with my T-levels went my energy levels, my strength, my muscle mass, my general mood... and yes, my libido too... which brought on the severe depression and weight gain. That's because testosterone doesn't just determine how well a man's sexual organs function, which is the general and incorrect assumption in our society. Rather, testosterone is the very "life force" that maintains the body's energy, strength, and weight. It's what allows a person to have the energy to simply live life. Without it our bodies are essentially incapacitated.
I've been getting treatment for my condition for a few years now, and am finally starting to see the weight come off. So yah, low testosterone isn't a joke folks. It's a serious health problem that can steal a man's life away if it goes untreated, which is what happened to me for eight agonizing years. I couldn't do a single flight of stairs without getting winded. I had to sit down to get dressed after a shower due to fatigue, and showers had to be short because I couldn't stay standing up as long as I used to. Worst of all, I had to stop riding my bicycle because I didn't have the energy to peddle forwards, and I was only 34 years old.
As a result of this experience I now have a boatload of more respect for seniors because I have literally walked in their shoes. These days I get T-shots regularly, and will likely have to keep doing so for the rest of my life.
So my recent weight loss is for me the light at the end of a very long tunnel. I'm feeling so much better, and am watching how much I eat and avoiding certain foods. I also have energy to exercise and go for bike rides again. I hope to post an update soon to report even more weight loss. I especially want to loose another 5 lbs so that I'll be under the 200 lbs barrier.
I promise that if I ever manage to get back down to 150 lbs I'll post a selfie in my speedo! LOL... but I'll be happy if I get to 180!!! That's 35 pounds! I got this! :)
Update March 21, 2020: I'm now down to 202 lbs!!! Woo hoo! :)